Saturday, December 4, 2010

Question marks forming, why?



Dear M,
I'm not sure whether you'll read this or not...
and I can't care anymore..
I know its hurting you, so am I..
I made a choice, very sorry...
Time may fade everything, including pain and anger.
You may not know your actions impacts me..
Let me tell you, they do..
I wanted to help, but I know I have to stay out of your life..
My presence might just make you feel bad, angry and you'll get all emotional..
I'm just saying all this out, not to ask for forgiveness or anything...
It makes me feel better, its selfish.. sorry
I have no idea what She told you,
but the small lil conversation seem to affect you..
I know and feel you hate me much,
and it hurts.

Take a look,
What do you think that made me feel?
Not only Fb, the rest too.. I know.
Maybe was your idea or others,
Even She deleted me from her friends list..
well great! Not only you make me feel depressed, miserable but guilt as well...
How bout just deleting me from your life? tell that to my face won't you...
Instead of me finding out that way..
But if doing this makes you feel good, go on then...
I seriously have no idea what I'm talking bout, its all so contradicting..
Just babbling all out- whatever in my mind..
I can't stand the cold shoulder but I know time is needed to heal oneself..


sometimes letting go is the best thing to do. then keep moving on.
I have always loved you.

trust me, it will.
stay strong.